I am contemplating much lately. I have many questions floating around inside of me. Some of them concern this blog and what I want it to be.
I have been thinking about Mary Poppins' line, "I shall stay until the wind changes."
She stayed until Jane & Michael didn't need her anymore.
I think that if she had come to live with me, she would not be staying with me much longer.
Because I feel as though the wind is changing here.
And I don't know how much I should share. Honestly, I feel like I want to share deep contemplations and personal stories here. It's just that I'm not sure I've ever shared anything that was truly personal in nature here. I share stories & photos of my family, my crafts, my growing skills as homemaker... but it's been sort of superficial sharing, hasn't it?
Perhaps I've been holding back. Perhaps I've not truly been sharing me here.
Maybe I'm a little afraid of who might be lurking (i.e. reading but not commenting), and what they might think or say. I might be related to some of them. I might be friends with some of them. I might work with a few. They might not approve, or might not understand this stuff. They might judge me. It could potentially make family gatherings and meetings... odd.
This started as a knit-blog. Just a place to share my knitting adventures. Then I let a little of the family stuff leak in. And as I (and my life) have changed, so has my blog... superficially, of course. I think I'm experiencing a pretty big change, and I'm wondering if I should go ahead, open up and let it all fly here, too.
I'm not saying I have any deep, dark secrets to hide. I don't have any significant skeletons in my closet. No, I'm not pregnant, divorcing, changing jobs, moving out of the country or running away to join a cult of wool-worshiping knitters.
But I have embarked on a journey of discovery, faith & family this summer. And I've pretty well kept that to myself until recently when a little of it began to leak out at the seams.
Maybe it's supposed to. I don't know. What do you think?